BORED zzzzzz !
On a happier note - Its ramadan next week - So happy days !
Thursday 28 July 2011
OFFICIALLY BORED !!!!!!!!
There is nothing more worse than being jobless graduate - I have nothing to do and am sooooooooooooooo bored ! I need a hobby - any help ? anything - knitting , drawing - things that don't require me to pay lool !
BORED zzzzzz !
On a happier note - Its ramadan next week - So happy days !
BORED zzzzzz !
On a happier note - Its ramadan next week - So happy days !
Tuesday 19 July 2011
Blossom !
Helloooooo people of the earth ! - well I firstly will apologies to those whom was anticipating a post since my last one ! I am just not been doing much - so i didn't have much to talk about ! - LOL yes I am that dull ! Anyways I was recently doing a spring clean to my room - I happened to be all sentimental and look at all my old belongings - and remembering loool ! Then within all that dust- I come across My good old diary - the diary that kept all the account of my teenage years from the beginning to the end.
Well , the first few years of my teenage years didn't sound great but that is pretty much like most teenagers in this day and age. The issue with not accepting yourself and having to go through the harsh and awkward transition of growing up ! - Not a nice experience ! Very much sounded like an angry and confused child if i was to sum it up . Booy once i am reading each account - I was thinking what stop me from subsiding to destruction . Then I remembered that during these period of times- i was learning to properly practice my deen!
Each day become better and I knew that despite all those problems that I had - Allah was always there for me ! ^_^ !
As the years gone bye - I realised that some problems are just too petty to worry about ! - with that sense of mind - I guess I blossom to what I am today- An Happy, independent and Grateful person !
Well , the first few years of my teenage years didn't sound great but that is pretty much like most teenagers in this day and age. The issue with not accepting yourself and having to go through the harsh and awkward transition of growing up ! - Not a nice experience ! Very much sounded like an angry and confused child if i was to sum it up . Booy once i am reading each account - I was thinking what stop me from subsiding to destruction . Then I remembered that during these period of times- i was learning to properly practice my deen!
Each day become better and I knew that despite all those problems that I had - Allah was always there for me ! ^_^ !
As the years gone bye - I realised that some problems are just too petty to worry about ! - with that sense of mind - I guess I blossom to what I am today- An Happy, independent and Grateful person !
Sunday 10 July 2011
You are officially my bodyguard looool
LOL This panda is A Gangstaaa !
I guess i would react the same if no one gave me my daily dose of sweets LOOOL
Best advert everrrrrrrr! HAHAHAH
I guess i would react the same if no one gave me my daily dose of sweets LOOOL
Best advert everrrrrrrr! HAHAHAH
A Better Life !
I seen alot times that when people want a better life - things that are important in life are compromised !
I mean I don't want to use this post - to preach to people how improve their lives - I simply just want to highlight a major problem in this day and age.
In the world of politics, - we see loads of politican saying again and again - " this is for the good of the people " or " The people 's best interest is at heart" - when trying to monopolize on anything
I guess at first - the motivation of wanting a better life is guenine but then its seems to always change to status.
Better life seems to change to - better than everyone else.
Maybe its coz as human its within us to expect more and more.
LOL I bet yor thinking - where did this all come from ? Well it was because I was just watching alot of documentaries about people with mental illiness and how they neglected from society and goverments.
I mean - the countries that these poor souls are in - are not even deprived but actually one of those very much developed countries. So the basic treatments or health care for these indivduals should be available - . Then why are such people not given this right - I think its because - the goverment thinks such people are not the priority and continues to ignore their plight all in the name of a " Better life " for the rest of the society.
Anyways - thats my lil rant or view - would like your views on what it means to get a better life and is it worth compromising things for it ?
Also a sad day for me today - Just found out that South and North sudan are offically separated - sad sad day !
I mean I don't want to use this post - to preach to people how improve their lives - I simply just want to highlight a major problem in this day and age.
In the world of politics, - we see loads of politican saying again and again - " this is for the good of the people " or " The people 's best interest is at heart" - when trying to monopolize on anything
I guess at first - the motivation of wanting a better life is guenine but then its seems to always change to status.
Better life seems to change to - better than everyone else.
Maybe its coz as human its within us to expect more and more.
LOL I bet yor thinking - where did this all come from ? Well it was because I was just watching alot of documentaries about people with mental illiness and how they neglected from society and goverments.
I mean - the countries that these poor souls are in - are not even deprived but actually one of those very much developed countries. So the basic treatments or health care for these indivduals should be available - . Then why are such people not given this right - I think its because - the goverment thinks such people are not the priority and continues to ignore their plight all in the name of a " Better life " for the rest of the society.
Anyways - thats my lil rant or view - would like your views on what it means to get a better life and is it worth compromising things for it ?
Also a sad day for me today - Just found out that South and North sudan are offically separated - sad sad day !
Friday 8 July 2011
I am Just trying to make everyone happy !
I had a serious word of advice from someone close to me - I was told to reconsider priorites when pleasing others.
So first of all what people should know is that I hate to feel regret or guilt - Never felt any thing so horrible than regret. So in most my actions to people - I try so hard to do things which would not make me regret. But Don't get me wrong, this is not coz i have to - but because I want to. This generally treating people with kindness and compassion! But then this is where It goes wrong and in fact I hurt and mistreat people. My heart and My brain works differently - Never together. I base an situation with logical and emotional but I don't base my descisions on them both. Confused ? okay - So here is an common scenerio which I have in various of occassion. I am seeing an fellow Male classmate that i recognise , we are the only ones waiting for the class to start - we are early and no one is here. In my head ( logical side ) says " Okay this is awkward - just greet him but don't get too friendly coz in the end of the day - you know co-mixes not allowed so don't be very informal . Then my heart says (emotion ) : " But thats Rude and you don't want him to have a bad representation of you .. your not like that ..."
There is a like about 4 mins discussion of in my head . Then I give up and take the emotional side and start chatting to the dude for a bit - on the basis of being friendly.
I go home and rethink what I done - I totally feel regret - Lol the same feeling I was trying to avoid comes to me. Why the regret ? Because - I compromised apart of what I believe to make what i assume someone happy. On the same night, I promise myself such thing won't happen coz I will use my Logical side this time and be formal and less overfriendly .
Next Day, I see the same guy heading towards me and sits next to me in the lecture. What do I respond with - A Cold shoulder . I can see an Confused face from the guy and then he questions me why i am not talking to him as much as yesterday. My heart drops ! - Same regret feeling - the Feeling that i was trying to get rid came again !
This reality comes to me from day to day life. I want to be the all rounded like person but I compromise something in the end - if its not a friendship then something i believe in- my faith !
I do get the odd " ermm... why am I not on your friend list anymore ... do u not like me ... i mean you spoke to me yesterday" - kills me each time - not coz of the question because I really don't no what I stand for and be assertive. In reality , the risk of trying please everyone else - is that I won't please anyone !
I think I have to remember that people respect others when they are no what they stand for ! Trying to make everyone Happy is an job not even the World leaders can't even do !
- Note to self : " Some people will like you and some won't - Move on But people will guarantee to hate you if you make false promises . In the end of the day - Only Try pleasing whats important to you- in my case - Allah !
Thought I needed get that out of my System!
So first of all what people should know is that I hate to feel regret or guilt - Never felt any thing so horrible than regret. So in most my actions to people - I try so hard to do things which would not make me regret. But Don't get me wrong, this is not coz i have to - but because I want to. This generally treating people with kindness and compassion! But then this is where It goes wrong and in fact I hurt and mistreat people. My heart and My brain works differently - Never together. I base an situation with logical and emotional but I don't base my descisions on them both. Confused ? okay - So here is an common scenerio which I have in various of occassion. I am seeing an fellow Male classmate that i recognise , we are the only ones waiting for the class to start - we are early and no one is here. In my head ( logical side ) says " Okay this is awkward - just greet him but don't get too friendly coz in the end of the day - you know co-mixes not allowed so don't be very informal . Then my heart says (emotion ) : " But thats Rude and you don't want him to have a bad representation of you .. your not like that ..."
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There is a like about 4 mins discussion of in my head . Then I give up and take the emotional side and start chatting to the dude for a bit - on the basis of being friendly.
I go home and rethink what I done - I totally feel regret - Lol the same feeling I was trying to avoid comes to me. Why the regret ? Because - I compromised apart of what I believe to make what i assume someone happy. On the same night, I promise myself such thing won't happen coz I will use my Logical side this time and be formal and less overfriendly .
Next Day, I see the same guy heading towards me and sits next to me in the lecture. What do I respond with - A Cold shoulder . I can see an Confused face from the guy and then he questions me why i am not talking to him as much as yesterday. My heart drops ! - Same regret feeling - the Feeling that i was trying to get rid came again !
This reality comes to me from day to day life. I want to be the all rounded like person but I compromise something in the end - if its not a friendship then something i believe in- my faith !
I do get the odd " ermm... why am I not on your friend list anymore ... do u not like me ... i mean you spoke to me yesterday" - kills me each time - not coz of the question because I really don't no what I stand for and be assertive. In reality , the risk of trying please everyone else - is that I won't please anyone !
I think I have to remember that people respect others when they are no what they stand for ! Trying to make everyone Happy is an job not even the World leaders can't even do !
- Note to self : " Some people will like you and some won't - Move on But people will guarantee to hate you if you make false promises . In the end of the day - Only Try pleasing whats important to you- in my case - Allah !
Thought I needed get that out of my System!
THE GHOST !!
GHOST is pretty much going to explain my disapperance from this blog - people, people don't worry- nothing bad happened to me. It was just Uni life that taking over my life, so I seemed to have let this blog go on the shelf for a bit. But GREAT NEWS PEOPLE ! - I myself am a graduate ! ALLAHUMDUILAH ! Believe me when I say- this was all the doing of God - GOD All Mighty - always been there for me when I felt i was going give up. Ya rabb ! As the world of education is finished - hopefully - Now its to find the path in this world - Dunya ! But why be afraid if Allah is by my side ! Happy and contempt - What more to ask for ? : )!
Now What I am to do ? Be FireFighter , Superhero loool - See the world ! Nothing is impossible unless Allah wills it !
University has been a Journey but one that I will forever cherish ! I met amazing People, All unique in their own way ! I am grateful for those who opened up to me and Let me in their life, those understanding and patient - Accepting me for being me ! - Never let those bad things stop me from loving and living life ! Allahumduilah !
I want to end this Post by mentioning All the good hearted people whom helped me throughout my Life
Uni Peeps - Love you for the Openness and Friendliness !
Computing girls - Love you girls for being so Understanding and patient of my commitments and problems . - enduring every bit when I had my "Me" moments - Never forget you guys !
Goldie Isoc - May Allah bless your Soul for all the things you did for me - Even if its little - Its enough to support me ! - You are all some funny sisters - I love you for the Sake of Allah - Hope Inshallah You succeed in this life and the next. Ameen !
High School Friends - All the times on which you Helped me - All the random situations that I got up to when Growing up - and helping me and Loving me for Whom I am ! Love you guys
Family - My Number 1 support - Looking out for me and always putting some sense onto me !
Parents - Your are the strongest people I ever met - No words can describe my Love for You - May Allah put you in the Highest jannah - Ya Allah Forgive me for all the bad things I did to them - and may your mercy and blessing be on them ! Ameen !
Ayeyo ( Grandma)- I love you so Much - Ya rabb - Forgive her for her sins - Love your Kind eyes and Funny Jokes ! May Allah bless your Soul in this life and the next ! Ameen !
And All the rest of the Important People I have met in My life - Love you All !
Finally Allah - The Most High, The Most merciful and Most beneficial ! - Ya RABB - My life support - May I die in Sirat al-Mustaqim !
Ya Allah - May the next Years be full of Happiness and No regret ! - Being ones that benefit this Life and the Next !
Now What I am to do ? Be FireFighter , Superhero loool - See the world ! Nothing is impossible unless Allah wills it !
University has been a Journey but one that I will forever cherish ! I met amazing People, All unique in their own way ! I am grateful for those who opened up to me and Let me in their life, those understanding and patient - Accepting me for being me ! - Never let those bad things stop me from loving and living life ! Allahumduilah !
I want to end this Post by mentioning All the good hearted people whom helped me throughout my Life
Uni Peeps - Love you for the Openness and Friendliness !
Computing girls - Love you girls for being so Understanding and patient of my commitments and problems . - enduring every bit when I had my "Me" moments - Never forget you guys !
Goldie Isoc - May Allah bless your Soul for all the things you did for me - Even if its little - Its enough to support me ! - You are all some funny sisters - I love you for the Sake of Allah - Hope Inshallah You succeed in this life and the next. Ameen !
Family - My Number 1 support - Looking out for me and always putting some sense onto me !
Parents - Your are the strongest people I ever met - No words can describe my Love for You - May Allah put you in the Highest jannah - Ya Allah Forgive me for all the bad things I did to them - and may your mercy and blessing be on them ! Ameen !
And All the rest of the Important People I have met in My life - Love you All !
Finally Allah - The Most High, The Most merciful and Most beneficial ! - Ya RABB - My life support - May I die in Sirat al-Mustaqim !
Ya Allah - May the next Years be full of Happiness and No regret ! - Being ones that benefit this Life and the Next !
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